I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But, nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

everyone has to go up and move on with life...explore what is out there.

as days passes by quickly, i realize that i need to do that...to move on with my life and not let anything get to me. yet it is soo hard to just let go of what use to be my happiness. days and months have gone by and i moved on...i did my own thing, yet im not satisfied. i still have those feelings. i regret letting go. i miss those happy days. but now im here, still feeling alone and without a doubt lost. i guess, im the type of person who cant just let go that easily and move on without caring/forgetting. i always keep the past with me even if i try soo hard to forget. i keep all the memories i made, the good and the bad. Even the clouds can see its over and they can feel my hurt inside.When the sun comes out tomorrow will I feel alright and dry my tears for me? when i look in the mirror, my reflection shows me that im all alone and scared. scared of letting go and scared of what is next for me in my life. im scared of jumping into a whole new world. making my own decisions and doing everything all by myself. i mean i want to move on and do my own thing...yet something is holding me back from just flying without wings. i know its time for me to just live life and go...yet i cant. i find it rather hard to do. but, all my life it has been me who has been there for me...like ive all my friends who have been here for me..but im just saying that in the end...its all on me. friends will always be here for me but it the end its me. its me for me and only me. im use to not having an actual person with me 24/7...but for some reason, moving on right now is just too hard. i dont have that much time now to just sit here and ponder. i know that very soon ive to choose and make my move. i cant play this game anymore...i cant live my life as a lie. i cant fake being happy when deep inside i feel lifeless. i feel as the world has slip me by and ive faded into the masses of clouds.